She will ask me about SI and SUI and I have to tell her the truth. Hopefully by Tuesday, my appointment, my urges will change, but I doubt it. I don't want the help anymore. If I politely refuse even if she doesn't feel I'm safe, what will she do? She can't force me to stay and if she calls the police, what will they do? I really don't want to go through all that crap again with the hospital, but I know that if I even mention any intent, everyone will freak out. Maybe I can hope that she won't ask this time... I hate that I can't lie...