Hi TJ, I know things are really hard
But even now I'm still seeing that spark in you........you mulled over talking to the crisis team, you answered your wife when she called, you kept that contact going, you headed back!!! Just try to keep that sort of contact going, hey??
And if you need to call the crisis team...........please do, they have helped in the past, right??
Whatever safe is going to/might help, OK??
Alison