Do not give another thought about it just know that no matter what or where or when you can always count on someone here to be readily available to chat or message or something. You are not alone. I too have caved. It seems like the more you try to remove the emotion the more it festers and then I explode. Just take one day at a time. Just ONE day. Don't let the past affect the future. Your future begins right now today. Start out on a good note. Be well and I hope that you find strength.