SG, maybe you could go voluntarily, or do you have a psychiatrist who can help you instead? I guess it all depends on the therapist in context with your risk.

That sounds like it was so traumatizing Scarlet. But you are brave for still utilization inpatient services. I could never go to a hospital for MH issues because i am too terrified due to my trauma history, so I keep some medications on hand for emergencies.