Good luck Scarlett!!!! I really hope it works out with this new T, my fingers and toes are crossed for you. I hope she's fantastic, and that she lots of experience with your issues, and has helped so many people that she's super-confident she can help you too (but not so confident that she's arrogant or doesn't listen to you!)

I hope it goes well!

Paying is hard.... you know, my T is super expensive, and not in-network for my insurance (so I'm going to have to fit for a tiny bit of reimbursement, once I meet the crazy high deductible). It causes me extra stress that feels a little bit unfair (like, geez, do I really need to nearly go broke to get mental health help?) But, I think you're right. If you can get help with her... then doing whatever you need to pay for it will be worth it. As I said before, I think you're awesome - and I absolutely believe that you've got a ton to offer the world. I hope that with therapy, you'll believe that too!

And... so your state insurance doesn't cover it at all? Not even as an out-of-network provider?

Good luck!!!