I think that if you are to have a chance with her, you need to take responsibility for your part in the many problems that bedeviled this relationship.
That means that you humbly tell her everything you did wrong, apologize, and ask for forgiveness.
That means that you don't blame her, or her friends, for anything.
Maybe you did this already, but if so it does not seem to have led to improvements in your behavior.
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My girlfriend just moved out on the 7th but left the house on the 1st after a massive fight.
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It takes two to fight. What was your responsibility in this fight, why did you not stop fighting?
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I did everything I could to make amends with her and rekindle the relationship.
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What did you do?
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Things were going really well until i hit my head and spiraled downward.
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Are you saying that problems with your head caused the fights and breakup? What sort of treatment were you getting (medical and psychotherapeutic) for the injury?
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We moved in and had some smaller disagreements but nothing that could not be worked through or taken care of with a hug. She wanted me to cuddle her more and show more affection but I was having so many mental issues with my head I couldn't do anything but concentrate on my health.
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What was the reasoning behind moving in after a breakup and you having serious health problems. If it was true that you literally could do nothing but concentrate on your health, it was wrong and unwise to move in. But was that literally true? Right now, you claim to be able to show concern for her in spite of your injury. Why now and not before?
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I was hurt and didn't know how to deal with it so we just argued over really dumb stuff.
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How is she to know that this will not happen again? What was your responsibility in starting/prolonging the arguments?
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We started arguing more in December when she told me she was going on a trip to Italy to a friends wedding in August that I was not invited to.
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Was this mature of you, to argue over this wedding? You are not married to her and you are not automatically entitled to an invitation, particularly to the wedding of someone that you disparage. Did you begrudge her this trip to Italy to share in her friend's happiness?
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I was hurt and didn't know how to deal with it so we just argued over really dumb stuff.
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People in mature relationships find ways to deal with the hurt other than arguing over dumb stuff.
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but I feel that she made a quick decision because of this same friend that had a hand in Us separating last year (its also her wedding).
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Do not blame the friend for your gf's decision. When you do that you diminish your gf, as if to say she does not know her own mind or cannot think for herself about something so basic as her bf. Leave the friend out of this.
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I had thought about making amends with her friend and family first but I don't know how to go about it.
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No. Do not hand the keys to your gf's heart to this friend and her family. And, as above, do not diminish your gf by suggesting that she needs her friend to figure out what to do or you will make amends by way of her friend. Have the courage to approach your gf directly.
I think that you need to prove to her that you have developed the maturity to end fights rather than start/continue them, that you can take care of yourself as well as love another, and that you are no longer going to make excuses or blame other people. If/when you can be man enough to humbly apologize to her for your wrongs, without blaming her for anything, if/when you can demonstrate that you are a new and better man, she might be willing to give you another chance.
Might.
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I am looking for some magic answer, just don't know what that is.
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This is not a mature comment. There is no magic answer when you have argued endlessly and hurt someone you supposedly love to the point that they move out and refuse to speak with you. There is only the humbling of yourself and the admission that you were wrong.
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Its hard to try and just shed emotions for someone, especially when you feel that the positives were amazing and the negatives could be overcome easily.
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I doubt that the negatives can be overcome "easily", but they might possibly be overcome.
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I still feel it could work out even better than before but I dont want to seem desperate.
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Why not seem desperate? Why this false pride?
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are desperate. You know that you screwed up and you are desperate for another chance.
You sent her mom a birthday card. That was thoughtful of you, but under the circumstances your bringing that up here troubles me. Again: you diminish your gf when you suggest that others can influence her, or that it matters whether or not her mother likes you or wishes you well. One could look at this in another way: that you can be kind to her mother but not to her.
My advice is to make a comprehensive list of your wrongs, take responsibility for each and every one of them and admit them to her, humbly apologize, and ask her forgiveness.