This is my first visit to this site. Thought I'd join to be able to talk to some people who might understand.
I've been diagnosed with bipolar, PTSD, anxiety. November 2013 spent time in psych ward for a month.
Was okay or getting by for awhile then I stopped going to doctor again. Missed meds. I was extremely down and out and had hard time doing what I knew I should be doing. So I messed up.
Now I can't get into a dr. here until June. I've been really down. Gaining a lot of weight. Sleeping too much or not enough. Crying. Unstable. Unable to stop constant thoughts. Suicidal thoughts again. No purpose in life. Same stuff as usual.
Guess I just want to know what you all do when you are so depressed and nothing seems worth it? What helps?
I've forced myself out the past few days. Walked. And I can hardly hold back my tears. Feels like I'm dragging dead weight.
Anyway, I don't know what to do but I'm just down and out. And because I messed up I don't have any meds and no doctor, no therapist.
Any suggestions appreciated. Sorry to whine about things but I just wanted to say where I'm at / what my situation is.
Thanks.