OMGawd........ feeling panicked.......

I just sent an email to 2 therapists. Now I am totally scared, tearful and have chest pains. I know it is anxiety......I'm breathing. But sheesh........why is this so hard.

I almost want them to tell me no, or not answer my questions, or give me a response that I don't like......so I can NOT see them! What is that all about????