i gave up on prayer myself recently, and i am still struggling with praying, how to pray, what to say, etc. the people here do care very much and i have found it to be a great place for support. i know what you mean about your puppies too. i have an antisocial cat who only comes out from under the bed to let me pet her, and when i have felt at my lowest, the fact that she needs me makes me feel like i have to go on. many hugs. we do care!