It's being told the"truth" by what they perceive either they are too close to me or I unintentionally pushed on them things that made them feel like that about me.

If I suffered worse , they'd won't leave me alone. I wont reach their expectations of they have for me. When I do believe them I destroyed the relationship and it's because I don't know I am not realizing my thoughts aren't normal or my life and expectations.

I should live my life, but everyone wants me to be something whatever it us. I am talking about people I am close to tell me these things.

Rather I hate them not because they don't support me, it's being discriminated and shunned for being me. My expectations for relationships are extremely unrealistic and in their words I am the craziest ****ed up person ever. They can't explain to me how ill never understand how messed up I am being forced to believing making myself believe this bs

So I just don't belong here.

I don't belong on this planet. I'm not feeling sorry. They're right I'm too sexual and act like every other guy I'm not special I'm not different my life is a joke.
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I'm sorry I'm not trying to be mean I'm just saying. "

According to her

So I am not going to talk to her anymore
And I won't eat, I don't feel like I am valued no matter what relationship. I am the one who should feel guilty. I dont believe or dont know which is true. My life feels like a lie and rather I just want to quit my job now while I'm at work. Just focus on not eating just forget it all.

It's not like I want to be old or living my life some other way from another so let me be and shut me out.

I dont want attention from this ***** I am. I can't put into words what to feel now or how prove you are wrong that I just don't know anything.

Like my sister and friends believed I was mentally challenged.

No relationship is worth anything. I make my own happiness if I don't eat for self control. So be it I'm content.