She is aware that there are times I feel unsafe when I leave. She is aware of the time I found myself in a neighboring parking lot sitting in a snow bank. She says there are other ways to help ground myself before leaving, but since her saying that, we have not had the opportunity to implement them. She thinks I have an issue with leaving sessions, and I told her it's only when I'm not in a good place, and it's because of my safety...not because I don't want the session to end or don't want to leave her. Those are not it. I think I finally got her to understand.

I don't feel like my T and I are a team anymore because I realized she has the power, not me, to make and change the rules, so to speak, without any input from me. For that reason too, I think I would have a hard time asking her for help.

Thanks Hankster! As always, I appreciate your input.