As I look up all these cases of Psychologist and LMFT wrongdoing, I can't help but imagine my T's name heading one of these court documents. Knowing that I could do this to her, I could publicly shame her.

She's been "trying" to be distant and professional with me now (aside from cursing/yelling at me), but it doesn't negate or erase the years on inappropriate contact or behavior, or what was the equivalent of emotional abandonment.

The sad part is her insistence that she's a really good therapist. I guess we are watching different movies.

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I could still file charges against her.

I think I am disturbing myself with the repeated thought of how easily I could do this. I looked up her name, saw how clean her record is, and thought "I could add a violation here." It would only be probation, but it would be a ding on her record.

I feel kind of evil thinking about it. But still. I could do it. She would probably lie, but I have recordings she allowed to be made. So no contest.

Wish I wasn't so evil thinking about the power I have to hurt her.