((ridicknotme)) I am so sorry for your losses. That really sounds extremely hard to deal with. I feel for you and what your life has been like since. It was not your fault. I believe that when it is our time, it is our time.

I know this may seem difficult but I think that you will never be able to replace her or your baby but life begins again when we reach out and love again. I have put myself on hold for some years now because of my loss and my therapist told me to love again. I really believe that until I do this, I won't feel connected to life like I did before. I hope that you find some solace in my words. Regards.