I am absolutely determined to beat my ED... so what does that have to with friends... I have a friend "that sucks the very life out of me". By this, I mean that I cannot do anything "right" in her eyes. This makes me so tired feeling and exhausted. She "pounces" on my every word. I could say the sky is a really beautiful blue today and she corrects me by saying "no... it is aqua blue, not blue". I say nothing.

This is just a trival example.. sometimes I wonder what normal conversation would feel like...

I have decided to limit conversations with her or I will have ED forever.. I am not in any way shape or form blaming my ED on anyone. But there is alot to be said for surrounding yourself with postive support.

Relationships are difficult... sometimes you just feel like surrounding yourself with cotton ball cushioning and "saying stay ten feet away".

The purpose of this post... I'm not sure... perhaps just to know that I can and will overcome this ED even if it means letting go of the past... that spills onto my present in the form of longterm friendship.

None of this is easy, it's very scary to do new things, to think new thoughts...