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Originally Posted by AnomalousCarrotCake
Thanks. Most of the time, the headline is enough to trigger me. But sometimes, like an idiot, I click and actually read the article. I have no clue why. It's as if I want to be angry, want to revisit my sense of loss or something? I don't understand why I do what I do, sometimes.
I hope somehow I can move forward, and live with the reality that in some things, there are no second chances. It bites, but there it is.
I think it would be easier to grieve and release the pain I feel and be able to move on, too, if I felt like my life was headed towards something positive. Lately, it hasn't, and I've had more losses (family deaths) to absorb in the past several months. So I'm experiencing depression, along with compounded grief.
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It sounds like you are experiencing a lot of loss in a close period of time. You may be in a part of the grieving process and anger is one of them so be gentle with yourself and time may be your friend right now. If you need to get angry, then do. Just don't let yourself be there for too long. If you need to cry, then do that as well. Everything has it's time. Depression and grief are so difficult to manage together so you are going through a double dose of difficulties. I also have depression and when I lose someone it seems to hit me much deeper and it seems to take me longer to handle it in an effective way. I just lost a friend and I seem to be in different stages of grief all over again and this is common. I wish you comfort.