I've been looking at schools and what I could study. It gives me anxiety. I don't think I'll be ready to go back to school this year. How I am now, I won't be able to go to school everyday and learn. And I don't think that will be different in 5 months. I think it's better to wait till 2016. And to have this year to concentrate on getting better.
It makes me sad. My life has been like this for almost 10 years. I miss so much. But I have tried before and I know I would fail school again if I go back to school with this severe depression and social anxiety.
I feel like such a failure