I think she respects it, she says she understands it, but as she said, we're at an impasse, and that is true. We'll just have to see how we (no, how I,) get through it. She's wanting to move on, I'm still stuck. I want to try to stay with her, but if I don't, I believe I have learned enough from her to try to carry on on my own, if I try hard enough. I don't want to dissociate because that makes me feel not in control of myself. And that makes me feel weak. And it gives the impression that I don't "want" to leave my session.... and I don't want to appear that way. It's not that I don't want to. It's that I feel I can't. Physically. Mentally. Not always, just sometimes.