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Originally Posted by divine1966
Well if you told me you were 85 then perhaps I say ok let's give up on romance. You are pushing 30 not 90! Many have no experience or very little.
You can not suppress and kill the desire. Of course it comes back. I am heterosexual female and can't imagine how would I suppress my attraction to men? There is no way! So of course you cannot suppress it!
I wish you found some good therapist to help you through this. Help with trauma and then dating etc It saddens me you are missing on so much in life.
I have two friends who is convinced they should give up on romance, they are in there late 30s. I am 49 and not giving up!
I wish I knew how to help.
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It feels to me that if I succumb to this desire, I will betraying myself, everything I've fought
not to be, everything I promised myself I wouldn't become, become like
him... In doing so I'd be a hypocrite, to myself and to the very essence of what I am.
I'm reminded of the ending of
Chinatown's sequel,
The Two Jakes: Meg Tilly asks Jack Nicholson if "It ever goes away?" He asks "Does what ever go away?" She says "the past." He tells her that she'll "have to work real hard on that one," and she leaves the office, but he runs after her and yells: "Katherine!" Then there's this long pause as she looks up and he shakes his head and right as the movie ends he says: "It never goes away."