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Originally Posted by oneironaut
It feels to me that if I succumb to this desire, I will betraying myself, everything I've fought not to be, everything I promised myself I wouldn't become, become like him... In doing so I'd be a hypocrite, to myself and to the very essence of what I am.
I'm reminded of the ending of Chinatown's sequel, The Two Jakes: Meg Tilly asks Jack Nicholson if "It ever goes away?" He asks "Does what ever go away?" She says "the past." He tells her that she'll "have to work real hard on that one," and she leaves the office, but he runs after her and yells: "Katherine!" Then there's this long pause as she looks up and he shakes his head and right as the movie ends he says: "It never goes away."
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You are betraying yourself by trying to fight who you are, you are not betraying yourself by being who you are. That is who you are. You only have one life. You are a gay male , you have no other life where you could be someone else.
You promised something to yourself that happen to be unrealistic promise. Make another more reasonable promise: promise to be true to yourself
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