I finally told someone, of my own accord, of my depression besides my T and pdoc. I was texting my godsister and told her I felt ready to tell her and if she was willing to listen to the extremely sensitive details and information that I was going to tell her. So I told her of my depression and social anxiety since middle school and my self harming. I didn't go into details about my depression but maybe I'll tell her some more about it later on. I'm even making myself vulnerable and taking a risk in telling her that I have suicidal tendencies and thoughts. I hope that it doesn't backfire on me and it wasn't a mistake...This was the first time I've been able to tell actually someone close to me about my mental illness and issues which I haven't even done with my family.