Feeling so emotionally drained... sitting here and the tears just keep coming. My 5 year old boy is sitting nearby playing lego. Taking some deep breaths and waiting for this to pass...

My life isn't that complicated, yet it is at the same time. I'm trying to make changes as I'm very unhappy with my current state of affairs.

Change is always easier said than done. Not even knowing where to begin. The inside battle I'm constantly fighting is wearing me down. Sometimes I think it's a cycle, as I've gotten through it all before. But during this phase, it gets harder and harder.

I reach out to friends, family. I feel like it's the same old same old. They must be tired of hearing me cry. So then I suffer alone. The pain flows with the tears and I'm waiting for the bucket to fill up so it's time to be emptied and start anew. If that makes any sense!