just wanted to let you guys know i made photocopies of the restraining order the certain parts he was in violation of and i highlighted the stuff he was violating. i also blocked his phone from texts and phone calls. the restraining order says i am not suppose to even see him in person, the pick-up and drop-offs of the child are suppose to be done through the people where he is living. before the people where he was living would bring him(my ex) with them to pick up the child - and i realize now that this was a mistake, i was trying to be nice, but i was also in violation of the order, i was even letting the child stay over a little bit longer than what the court had ordered. anyway, all of that is over, i am going to follow the order 100%, that way he can't "think" anything. after all it says NO CONTACT unless peaceful and only to discuss the child and it must be brief. forget trying to be this guys friend. we're only parents of a child, and nothing more than that. i regret this entire relationship from day one, the only thing i do not regret is my child. it's too bad his father is ... weird, for a lack of a better word.

good news though, my child absolutely loves my boyfriend and i didn't push that on the child or my boyfriend, they seem to have just clicked. of course the child loves his dad as well, but he is a little weary about his father. the father was emotionally abusive towards the child as well, i don't even know why i allowed visits... our parenting styles are completely different. second chance for him to be a father i guess, i have no idea, i sort of also regret allowing visits because when my child comes back his behavior sucks. hahaha. ....