I am so sorry for your loss.

I think this is the reason that most T try not to get their clients attached to them. You are suffering a loss that if you had not been in therapy for so long with her (13 years) you would not be. I know I was in therapy for nine years with the same T and it was horrible when it ended.

Do you plan to stay in therapy that long with this one. She has been doing it for 30 years and she will probably retire soon. I would not want to see you go through another horrible ending.