Isn't it dumb how bad thoughts come and hit you in the face once you feel healed? It feels unfair and stupid.

I've been hit in the face. It hurts and I'm scared. I'm noticing I'm doing things I don't normally do and that's stupid too. I hate this.

I'm riding it out but I don't see T for two weeks. He's booked up. Anxiety sickens me and bad thoughts/imagery frighten me.