I see a therapist every week and we talk about it. She says I do it subconciously. I don't realize I turn things that hurt into humor or something else I kno. I also see a Pdoc and we r still trying to figure my cocktail. I'm sure finding a cocktail may be easier if they knew I was BPD or BP or anything else but as of yet no diagnosis other than depression and anxiety. I kno diagnosis isn't everything but really In Finding a cocktail knowing what it is helps.

My wife is BPD she believes I am too as does her therapist. I might change therapists. My wife's gave a good referral for me so I may try something new.