I don't have time to respond individually so I will combined them as much as I can. I am not a minor anymore but I just turned 18 a week ago, so my mom still does my appointments and insurance, and since she came from a European culture, 18 is just a number to her :P I still respect her advice and after talking to her today about trying to get out of this session, she said no. Thankfully she didn't push for the reasons as much as she usually does.

A part of me wants to go, but the majority wants to run. I feel like I am in a constant battle with myself in trying to get help or run away from it. I will have to really think about what I am going to say to her. I know that these thoughts don't lighten up over time with me, so by Tuesday, I'll probably be the same way. I just wish that if I had to tell her, that I can just lightly refuse extra help, even if she really thinks I need it or am not safe. That would make life so much easier.