A couple of years ago I had a very reliable friend. I could tell her about my life and she would seem interested. There is nothing more valuable than having someone who listens and cares. Well, time passed and have fallen out of favor with each other. She has other priorities (understandable) and I don't feel that comfortable contacting her now. I keep thinking about that movie When Harry Met Sally - it's hard to keep boy/girl relationships unless you are their significant other. At least this is my experience. I know I sound clingy but that's just the way I am. Now she's somebody else's muse. It's not like we were sexually involved - we weren't but damn I created a good history with her and it haunts me. Time generally sucks, it takes away friends, family and your health. Two years ago I was in better place (not great because I'm a bit if a loner) because I knew that if I did something I could share it with her. Her picture will always be on my mental wall - I try not to hate her because she really hasn't done anything wrong. Sometimes I feel her sitting across from me but she's not there. Alone, I close my eyes and I can hear her voice. Come back please.