Hello Edwyn,

Welcome to PC. I'm glad you found us.

I suggest you go to a psychologist and get some counseling regarding your problem. Also a psychiatrist can help by giving you meds for Social Anxiety Disorder.

I was raised in a church very much like yours. For years I was terrified of not being able to find "my correct place" during the Rapture only to be left behind and I also was terrified for years that I was a witch.

I mention my past fears to make you see that I understand so very much. Please seek help from professionals and stay here at PC. You'll get a lot of support from loving, caring members.

I wish you well,

January