Well I first spoke to my gyno (I know it's odd) but I thought my BC was making me crazy and I was having some other issues as well. He started me on Paxil but I was having a lot of side effects. It did help but the side effects were ones I couldn't deal with. So I started seeing a family med doctor and she told me that she was well versed in mental illness and that I had all classic signs of depression and started Prozac. That made the anxiety so bad I couldn't see straight. She changed me to lexapro and I've been on that for a little more than 6 months now.

Here recently, I seemed to have had a misunderstanding and pushed away some very important people. That combined with the constant rain and lack of sunshine and fresh air , I think caused me to go into a very dark place. Last Sunday I spent the afternoon crying my eyes out and thinking of all the ways I could end it all so I called my doctor Monday and got an appointment that afternoon. They started me on Wellbutrin to help give the lexapro a little kick. I didn't get to see my primary Monday though, so I have been seen by 3 doctors now.

I am hugely passive aggressive and I hate it. I do try not to be but sometimes I act/say and then I think about it. I know it's backwards.

What's DBT? I will try not to beat myself up over it all. I just have always been like this.. You know the saying "you are your worst critic" is definitely true for me.

Thank you for your kind responses. It is definitely appreciated.