Hi Edwyn,
Welcome to the site! Religion can do such damage to us if it's used as a threat while growing up. Me and my sister talk about that sometimes. She is 50 and hasn't been to church since she was 18 but she still freaks if she does something that she thinks is a "sin".
I agree with the post above about getting a bit of counseling about this. I'm wondering if you really have let go of the guilt and shame of the past?
Tranquility
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