My heart goes out to you. I was abruptly terminated from my therapist a few years ago. I know it's not the same but I can relate to what you are feeling. I loved this therapist so much and I genuinely felt that she cared for me as well. After termination, I thought about her every day. I purposefully tried to visualize her face so that I wouldn't forget her. I was so afraid that I would and I would be all alone with nothing. I even tried sending her mental thoughts in hopes that she would somehow think about me.

I have the fairly unique experience though of being able to be reunited with this therapist after a year. I never thought that it would be an option but I couldn't turn it down. Since then, my t and I have spent a lot of time talking about our termination and all the emotions and abandonment feelings. She said that she thought about me a great deal. So to answer your question- I think that it's normal to think about a t that you had a close relationship with. I thought about my t every day that I wasn't her client. I also think though that if you had a good relationship, your t probably has thought about you as well. Therapists are taught to withhold their emotions in front of their clients but they are human too. My therapist told me that she still has gifts that her clients from twenty years ago made for her. Therapists remember their past patients.