(((Falling Tears)))

I am sorry to hear that you are not travelling well.

It's really hard when you are in a position where you think Therapy isn't helping you progress forward.

I am glad that you have been sober for 5.5 days; that is really positive. I know it's hard; but I want to acknowledge this achievement. It takes strength to do this.

The situation is now you are left emotionally vulnerable.

So you're debating the safest of two options.

Both of them, in my opinion, can be just as destructive, for different reasons.

I would not really ethically be able to advice on a "worse" / "safer" one of the two as I really believe both of them can be damaging, physically and certainly emotionally. Which kind of sounds ironic as it can bring temporary relief.

Please hang in there.

It's easy to wonder which is less socially acceptable.

It's where your thoughts are at the moment.

I think that there should be more support groups for self harm. AA is so readily available but burning yourself can cause as much damage.

Hang in there.