I feel really bad. I just told my fiance I hated him over the kind of shoes he wanted me to wear. I always want to be in boots or heels because I only feel pretty in those type of shoes. He wants me to wear tennis shoes to go to the store and even though it's 5:30am I wanted to wear boots. I feel like when in tennis shoes I look like a homeless bum. I have very low self esteem and for me unless I feel like I look like the best I can going out in public is a very high anxiety situation for me. I can't go out in anything other than boots or heels because I can't handle going out in public without them on. It to me says hey I have my life together and I can look good because of it. When in all reality my life is falling completely apart because of my low self esteem. I hate that I hate myself but I don't see anything to love about myself. The only good thing about me is my eyes everyone tells me how pretty they are because they are a mix of sea blue and baby blue. I hate that the only way I can feel comfortable in my own skin is to dress in heels and boots. The shoe thing causes a fight all the time but the minute he mentions tennis shoes and public it becomes an instant anxiety attack for me. I don't know what to do.