Hmmm...feeling lonely. Don't know really. Also not lonely too. I am grateful that i feel better about myself. I am so grateful for it. I would like to be completely like that. I would like someone to come into my life that i can talk with about anything and any time. I guess i am looking for a mate. It seems friends are not like that. I guess i got used to that lifestyle having a husband once...then it was taken away. Before that i wasn't used to talking to someone like that.

I also very tired of fixing myself. Though maybe i healed a lot.

Going to stop now before it becomes long. Guess, not doing well...though feel okay. If that makes sense.