I live half the world away.....I lost my Mom to a stroke in this land...it took her almost four years to die a slow painful death. During this time I lost everything in order to pay bills. I lost my wife to another man and i lost my house, car and business. I moved to an area where I dont know anyone....I have health issues and I cant sleep. When I see a Dr hete they tell me to meditate or walk on the beach....this all started in late 2008....and its been a ride to hell and back. I lost people I thought were long time friends.....my wife of 11. Years was a card player and i never knew it.......so people say move back to the USA...Where I have no family and maybe Two old friends.......my new gf seems to be after wgat little i have left.........I cant sleep i am lonley in a faje paradise its my prison.