If it helps at all - you have to jump through hoops for any kind of disability or aid - so don't think they are just doing it to you...from this web site and my background in property management hoops are always going to be there...

Do everything in your power to get better...then you will never feel like your faking anything...

Yes there are days you will feel like the only thing you do is use the bathroom, there will be days you can go out an laugh and play...doesn't mean your faking it (I always assume people are being honest with me unless there is reason not to believe that by their actions).

So your an honest person...go through the hoops required...and let the guilt go...