I suffer with gender dysphoria as well, and it is very difficult. It feels as if no one wants to understand what I'm going through. I talk about it with friends but they immediately get uncomfortable. So I know how rough it can be. I can also relate to you about being depressed. People always tell me I look fine and happy but I'm the only person who knows how I truly feel. It's very hard, and it's isolating. I wish you the best of luck!