Hi BrightShadows, welcome to PC and this forum. You sounded just fine and your story could've been mine! When I was a teenager I had a major identity crisis not knowing who I am even gender wise. I felt awkward but didn't want to seem different then normal people and went into denial- which made me feel even more so. I was fighting myself all my life. Later in life we accepted being like this that we all finally relaxed. Even today I'm always changing, cycling through alters and moods throughout the day. My basic ID is the body's name and I am who ever is up front. I'm aware of my alters because we talk, discuss, vote, make fun of, and hang out together. We work together to keep this system functioning in life. True blue DID is as described in the DSM5 is the extreme side of dissociation. Dissociation is a spectrum, and most of us live there. I hope you keep coming back and tell us more hun!