I can relate to what you are experiencing. When I first reached out for help, someone told me it was a great sign I valued myself just enough to want to stop hurting myself with what dulled my pain, but solved no problems. I was VERY afraid, but even though addiction had helped me avoid a lot of pain in my youth I maybe couldn't handle then, the consequences of addiction became too self-destructive and too serious and too scary. My plans for suicide had become too real. It's still a daily struggle, but you are not alone if you have a sex addiction, and I really hope you keep reaching out and find true recovery. Dig deep for strength and reach out to others for more. You're worth it.

mtd