SP, although I can't say much about DBT since I don't know much about it, I'm just stopping by to let you know your writing is amazing & keep doing what you're doing girl, you're doing awesome!!!
The emotions you have expressed in your posts, I can REALLY feel them, and that is because I also suffered two very sudden & unexpected terminations in the past year as well & I too am trying to sort through things & start over therapywise & determine where to go next. I just try to take everything one day at a time & do as many things as I can self care wise (anything I find to be fun or enjoyable) & focus on all the positives in my life. I don't avoid or ignore the feelings if they come up about my ex Ts... but I also don't focus on them for too long either. I've learned to honor them & accept what is for me. I did not receive adequate closure with them & like you I struggle with the same types of feelings you've mentioned, this definitely takes time to heal from! I admire your courage & determination as you move forward! You are a great example of how to be in this kind of situation for myself & many others!
I think you're on a good track already right where you are, which is remarkable considering how fresh this situation still is for you, you're using a lot of positive coping skills to get you through those times & you are still doing a lot of your everyday things as well. It may not feel to you like you're making that much progress & it may even feel like you're going backwards some days, but keep fighting through it & slowly but surely you WILL get there! Best of luck to you with your soon to be T, your ex T doesn't know what she lost in you... keep shining girl, I'm rooting for you & I'll be back to check for more updates as well!
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