Welcome to Psych Central (PC) raspberry. Sorry to hear you have been suffering from a depression for many years. Staying on the meds is important to keep on a balanced, grounded place. Going off meds cold turykey can have bad side affects.

Getting sleep may be the single one thing that keeps people in balance. If you are not sleeping contact your psychiatrist and tell him what is happening so you can make adjustments.

Some people at PC will find a therapist will also help them sort out the roots of their life.

Many people find compassionate, caring people here at PC. Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

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