Perna! That link was so useful!!! I relate so much to it! I sit here gobsmacked wondering "%#@&#! what the f**k happened to me" Its unbelievable, all the evidence points to things happening but the mind sometimes just doesn't respond to it, I mean at the end of the day as I alwasy say to T, It was my life, how can we say our lifes were so "wrong?" when thats all we know?