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I'm sorry you are feeling this way hon. Those ups and downs must be so very difficult for you to deal with. One little suggestion hon, "this too shall pass". I know it doesn't really help when you are in the throws of your anger and frustration. But it's true. Try to ride the wave and know that it will pass and things will calm down.
I'm saying prayers for you and sending you love and strength to get through this difficult period.
xoxoxo
Jean