This sounds different from other posts. I've came to an understanding I hate my sexual frequency of getting horny all the time when I'm home or alone. I touch or masturbate a lot. It's something like it's not a bad habit going wild. This doesn't include public or anywhere other than my house and or mainly a girl I am dating.

Rather, I find it frustrating my body is so sensitive to the sensations. I can't concentrate and it gets worse the more I don't do it. Only two ways stop it in the moment which requires lots of immediate distraction. And texting and writing posts help, but I feels like a anticipation amazing sex is coming and I am not comfortable how my body springs from just from just fabrics wind whatever cause me to have an erection.

It caused me confusion in a recent friendship that it may could of well been sexual, but it got too much rather she isn't the type of person at all I'm sexually attracted to. It's gotten that desperate. It feels unhealthy and it causes lots of pain. I can't ask my mom to have me see a dr. She will shun me as a ***** again, asking paranoid questions if I'm on drug or did someone give me aids.

If I was gay my mom would shun ne despite acting like she supports me. She hides her true feelings from arrogance ik when coming out trans it happened.

See I'm sexually attracted to mem as a woman not a guy. It's simply not working as a guy having sex with one. With a girl i get a huge high that's intense through all of it.

Rather I hate how I'm stuck alone all the time and I don't feel comfortable talking about my feelings on my sexual stuff period. Anything with strangers and people ik personally I find very attractive. People say I look great and wouldn't have a problem, but yes I get very put off by girls "flirting" with me.

I'm done having my body enslave me.