And some days I am happy but surprised how I could easily be a heroin addict in my area. Heroin is easier to attain than alcohol. Its so bad many streets in the local town centers have needles on the side walk. I avoid all the time not to wear sandals outside fearing I step on one with aids or something or left over heroin and a bloody foot. They definitely were pitched to avoid arrests, and living here alone gets in your head seeing so much self destruction trying to stay afloat from all of it. Rather no one cares to be around you. Every person ik is so dissociated from me and how they perceive me it's like it is two different people we are talking about.