Update from this post: http://forums.psychcentral.com/psych...abusive-t.html

I cut it off completely with the abusive T. I kept going back. I finally cut it off about a month ago. The trauma he left me hurts. It makes me so ANGRY that he is going on with his life like nothing happened. while I am stuck in PAIN. It's been a months since and I just feel hurt, lost, and alone. I have a new T who is awesome and is super caring. He gives the right amount of contact between sessions and isn't like that ****** T.

Overall, it still miss that abusive T. But I know it will be bad if I text/contact him again which is why I don't want to. Things are tough but I am coping.