I don't think it's the first time I've ever experienced racing thoughts. But 2 nights ago, I really noticed it. I felt like my head was spinning, my temples were tingling. But I couldn't tell what I was thinking. There was so much wizzing by. Every so often I could catch a thought, as I was speaking, and would just blurt it out.

Dh has been there, a lot, so he just let me talk for a few minutes. And then gave me a distraction. I baked some muffins, and it helped calm me down a little bit. But my mind was still racing.

Last night wasn't as bad, I only had about 10 minutes of time alone after the kids went to bed before dh got home. So my thoughts didn't really get a chance to jump into motion.

But today, I can tell they're going again. I'm trying to channel the energy into my writing, but it's difficult to write with the kids up. Unless I plop them infront of the TV, and well, lets just say, I don't want to do that. They're watching now, but it's their favorite show. So we're still within our routine.

Anyway. I'm looking forward to my Psychiatrist appointment. 8 more days. I think I can wait 8 more days. I'm not really sure what to expect. Dh told me about his appointment, and I know what to expect as far as office routine. But will she want to change my meds? Change my dose?

I'm sure I'll have a med change. I haven't been eatting. I haven't been able to eat. I'm just not hungry. When I get hungry, I don't want to eat anything, I have zero appetite. My sleep seems to be leveling off again thought. For about a month, maybe 6 weeks, I wasn't getting much sleep, and was exhausted all day. Or, I would get a good amount of sleep, but wake up just wishing I was laying in bed snoozing away...and would fall asleep while the kids watched PBS after breakfast. And would end up sleeping on and off for nearly two hours before they wouldn't let me sleep anymore.

I know something is going to change.

I'm not sure if I should proceed with a med change before or after surgery. I mean, over all, my mood has gotten better. I still feel slightly depressed, but no longer weighed down. However, I don't feel stable. I really don't know if it would benefit me to be 2 weeks into a med change when I go into surgery, or if I should wait until after most of my recovery time has passed before I move on to it.

I need to call my PCP for a refil anyway...I guess I could always ask her. But I don't want her to change my meds. I would really prefer for the Psych. to do it.

ANy thoughts? Anyone? I'm feeling rather dizzy.gif these days. and Especially on these thoughts.

(Background.... I'm on 20 mg of Lexapro, it's been about 6 weeks since I went to 20 mg. The surgery I speak of is to remove a cyst from the base of my finger on the inside of my hand. It's causing problems with my day to day life, in that I can't 'over do it' by just taking care of my everyday chores. I've taken the last week and a half 'easy' and not don't a lot. The house is messy, so I can't keep it up much longer. It will be removed on July 11th. Surgery makes me anxious)