In public and at work I am known as the fun easy going one but at home I am a monster. I rage at the kids and yell all the time. Mainly about stuff around the house that doesn't get done. I worry ALL the time that I am screwing my kids up. They are 13 and 16 and I feel non stop guilt at all my yelling. It's pretty much the only this I want to improve on. I beat myself up every day for it and last night my husband said how I have to lay off the kids and that they are going to turn against me and shut me out of their lives. My biggest fear and he was an asshole about it. At this point I have no desire to ever talk to him. My kids still hang around me and don't act like they hate me, but I'm sure they will if I keep going. I don't think my husband has ever said anything so hurtful

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