tomi, although we all try to explain why our parents/ abuser did the things they did we can not. What we all must remember is this....it isnt our fault! your mom never expected anything good to come out of you.. but you know what you proved her wrong... you have a beautiful family! you have beauitul grandkids that think you hung the moon!
I know it hurts to think that she always expected the worst from you, believe me i know how bad it hurts.
I believe in you and always will!

love ya~!