I have been trying to change at home for at least 10 years. I seem to lack the mothering ability. Out of everything this is the main issue that makes me think suicidal thoughts. I wonder if they would be better without me. I doubt they would think that but I do. But then I don't know who would take care of them. Unless my husband found a better wife. This is the spiral my brain takes

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